Getting out of bed to get to set [for Lip Synch Battle] was painful. My lower back throbbed; my shoulders – even my wrists – hurt. I didn’t have an appetite. When I wasn’t in the studio I never left the house. I’d ask people who came inside why they were wet. Was it raining? How would I know – I had every shade closed. Most days were spent on the exact same spot on the couch and rarely would I muster up the energy to make it upstairs for bed. John would sleep on the couch with me, sometimes four nights in a row. I started keeping robes and comfy clothes in the pantry so I wouldn’t have to go upstairs. There was a lot of spontaneous crying.
I’m speaking up now because I want people to know it can happen to anybody and I don’t want people who have it to feel embarrassed or to feel alone. I also don’t want to pretend like I know evertything about postpartum depression, because it can be different for everybody. But one thing I do know is that – for me – just merely being open about it helps.
Speaking to E! Online, John said:
I’m so proud of her. She showed me the drafts when she was writing it, and I knew it would mean a lot to a lot of women for them to see that.
By acknowledging the pain she’s going through, she also acknowledges the pain that a lot of women go through after they have a child. A lot of people don’t want to talk about it. A lot of people feel alone when they’re going through it and for her to let people know that they’re not alone, I think was really powerful.
You have to be present. You have to be compassionate. You have to understand what the reasons for them feeling what they’re feeling are. I think once you know the reasons, you can be more helpful in identifying what they’re going through.